GREAT NEWS....

I GOT TO TALK TO MY MOTHER CAROLE....THIS IS A GOOD THING...I TOLD HER HEY..WISHED HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND TOLD HER I LOVE YOU.....THIS IS HUGE...I FELT 40 RS CAME OFF MY SHOULDERS...THIS IS SMALL STEP...BUT ITS OK...LITTLE STEPS..I SENDED HER A HOMEMADE CARD..PICS AND A BRIEF LETTER....THANKS TO MY BABY SIS..T..E..R FOR THE SPEAKER PHONE..I GOT TO HER MY MOTHER AND MADED HER LAUGH....THIS IS A GOOD THING....

STEP MOTHER AND THE FATHER

STILL NOT FINISHED WITH THESE TWO....STILL HAVE A LOT TO SAY....UGH......ANYWHO....U ANIT WORTH MY TIME JUST YET....WHATEVA....

IM STILL NOT FINISHED....

IM STILL NOT FINISHED....IM GOING TO BLAST THESE TWO MOTHERS AND THAT DRUNK FATHER....IM NOT DONE...IM PISS AS FUCK....EVEN TO I HAVE FORGIVEN THEM..MY MOTHER AND FATHER...BY LETTER AND VERBALLY..TO THEM...IM STILL GOING TO EXPOSE THE DALLNER REIGN BULLSHIT...AS FOR MARY DALLNER...AKA...STUPID STEPMOTHER BITCH...IM COMING TO YOU...BLAST YOUR ASS TO THE MOST..

I WILL NOT LET THESE 3 BITCHES...TAKE MY MIND..THOUGHTS...AND TO GET THRU CERTIAN PAIN IN AREAS...THAT NEEDS TO BE SAID....AS FOR MY BROTHERS AND SISTER...IM EXPOSING TO....I WILL STOP BITCHING WHEN U START OWNING UP TO BEING A ADULT AND WE START ACTING LIKE BRO/SIS..LIKE WE SUPPOSE...WE HAD THE SAME PARENTS...OR DID YOU ALL FORGET...I WONT FORGET..I FORGAVE..BUT WILL NOT FORGET...AND MARY DALLNER U ANIT WORTH FOR FORGIVENESS...EXPLAIN LATER...IM GOING TO BE BLOGGING AGAIN ON ALL MY BLOGS..LISTED HERE ON THE LINKS TO THIS PAGE...

CAROLE, MARY..WILLIAM....

CAROLE....

YOU FUCKING LEFT ME....U ABANDONED ME...HOW COULD U DO THAT...I WAS YOUR FIRST OLDEST..I CANT EVER GET PASS THAT U DID THIS TO ME... I HATE WHAT U MADE ME GO THRU AS AN ADULT AND CARRY THE PAIN ALL THIS TIME...U WERE NOT THERE FOR MY GRADUATION FROM HIGH SCHOOL..U WERE NOT THERE FOR MY FIRST CHILD I HAD...U WERE NOT THERE FOR MY SECOND AND THIRD CHILD...U DID NOT ATTEND MY WEDDING U TOOK THAT ALL WAY FROM ME.. AND I TRY ED TO REACH OUT TO YOU...AT LEAST 5 TIMES THRU THE PHONE..U COULDN'T FACE OR ANSWER ANY OF MY QUESTIONS...

I WILL FORGIVE YOU..I WILL NOT FORGET FOR I AM A BETTER MOTHER IN WAYS ..THAT YOU WERE NOT FOR ME.. I TOOK CARE OF MY CHILDREN AND RESPONSIBILITIES...FROM DAY ONE ON ALL MY THREE CHILDREN YOU DON'T EVEN GET TO SEE YOUR GRANDCHILDREN OR GREAT GRANDCHILDREN.....YOU HAVES MISSED OUT ON LIFE AND MY LIFE...ITS ON YOU...NOT ME..I WILL NOT TAKE THIS PAIN ANY LONGER....I'M 54...TIME TO LET GO....BY THE WAY...FUCK YOU...FUCK OFF...ENOUGH SAID....

MARY....WICKED STEPMOTHER.....

WELL I HATE YOUR FUCKING ASS... U ABUSED ME...MENTALLY...PHYSICALLY..EMOTIONALLY FROM THE AGE OF 10/18 YRS OF MY LIFE....U HAVE EMBARRASSED ME IN WAYS...U PUT YOURSELF FIRST IN THE CHURCH AND MADE US SIT IN THE BACK OF THE CHURCH IN THE LAST PEW...U ANIT FUCKING SPECIAL THANKS TOO U...I HATE CHURCH IN WAYS...THAT I DON'T LIKE THE FACT OF FAKE PEOPLE AND U ARE #1 ON MY LIST...I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU EVER....I WILL ALWAYS WISHED I HIT YOUR ASS LIKED MY SISTERS DID...BUT I LEFT HOME TO GET AWAY FROM ALL THE BS DYSFUNCTIONAL CRAP FROM THE DALLNERS...I'M SO GLAD I DON'T USE THAT NAME IN MY LIFE....I DON'T NEED TO ASSOCIATE MYSELF TO THE DALLNERS. I ONLY GIVE U 0.1 OF FORGIVENESS...THAT'S ALL U GET....I WILL MAKE SURE...WHEN U LEAVE THIS EARTH....I WILL ATTEND IT....ITS A RECKONING..I WILL NOT LET MY PAIN TAKE ME DOWN ANYMORE I'M BETTER AND STRONGER AND A BETTER MOTHER WHEN YOU EVER WAS...YOUR OWN SONS MY BROTHERS..HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU.....U THINK.....

NOTE......!!!!!! I AM WHO I AM....A WOMAN...A MOTHER A GRANDMOTHER A WIFE...AND BEST OF ALL..I'M A BITCH....THAT WILL NOT TAKE BS FROM ANYONE NO MORE...ITS MY LIFE...YOU ALL GOT THAT.....

MY FATHER....I WILL NOT FORGET WHAT U HAVE DONE ....YOUR SECRET LIFE AND U DIDN'T TELL YOUR CHILDREN....I WAS YOUR FIRST OLDEST...AND U TREATED ME AND SAID TO ME..I WAS A BITCH JUST LIFE THE FIRST WIFE...AND I ALWAYS SAID I WAS GLAD I WAS A BITCH I DON'T LIKE BS...U DID NOT PUT ME FIRST....I WAS NOT DADDY'S GIRL...AND U PRECIOUS LESLIE WAS YOUR GIFT..FUCK YOU DAD.... I REALLY DID HATE YOU....U WERE A DRUNK...U CAME TO MY FOOTBALL GAME DRUNK...JR YR IN HS...LIKE I DIDN'T SEE THAT...U ADORED MY FIRST CHILD...YOU WERE NOT THERE FOR MY SECOND AND THIRD CHILD...NOR MY WEDDING... I MOVED TO FL..TO GET AWAY FROM ALL THE DALLNERS...I WAS NOT GOING TO LIVE WITH THE BS....I GIVE U 0.1 OF FORGIVENESS CUZ U LET MY REAL MOTHER GO BY THE WAY OF YOUR PARENTS...U LET THE WICKED STEP MOTHER ABUSED ME...AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT...

I WAS A GOOD MOTHER AND FATHER TO MY KIDS...I DIDN'T KEEP SE CERTS ITS ALL ON YOU ...AND NOT ME...I WILL NOT TAKE THIS PAIN ANY LONGER FROM YOU....YOUR LOST...

MY GAIN WERE MY CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN AND MY HUSBAND....TO BAD SO SAD U DIDNT GET TO BE IN MY LIFE....I TRYED TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE....BE GONE...IM OUT BITCHES...

I DONT RECALL......

KNOWING THAT THIS HOLIDAY IS DIFFICULT FOR ME TO GET THRU....CAROLE ANN CHILVERS DALLNER COTNER....EVEN THOU U STILL LEFTED US...BACK IN XMAS EVE OF 69.....AND I WILL BE 54 IN TWO DAYS....AND YOU NEVERED REACHED OUT...AND I HAVE...AND I CANT GET NOTHING OUT OF YOU OF SOME OF THE FACTS...I NEVERED HEARD THAT U LOVE ME...LET ALONE SAY IT TO ME.....WOW...THAT REALLY SUCKS......THANKS FOR BEING A MOM....I WILL BY ALL MEANS GET THRU THIS HOLIDAY....44 YRS IS ENOUGH OF PAIN.....GOD I HATE YOU....AND U MARY DALLNER...EVIL STEP BITCH......YOUR NOT GONE YET....WHATEVER BITCHES.....NICE ROLE MODELS..........................NOT.........................................

i just dont get this.........................

I THOUGHT ...I WAS DOING GOOD...MY FORGIVING MY MOTHER...AND IT IS STILL HAUNTING ME...MORE...LIKE I NEVERED FORGIVE HER.....XMAS IS COMING UP ...AND I HATE THIS HOLIDAY....I PUT MY XMAS FACE ON FOR MY FAMILY...BUT DEEP INSIDE...I HATE IT.....SO IF MY GRANDPARENTS ON MY FATHERS SIDE...PAID FOR MY MOTHER TO LEAVE US BACK IN 1969...WHY IN THE HELL DID COOK COUNTY BACK IN 1969..GIVE CUSTODY TO MY DAD....WHO MIGHT OF BROKEN THE LAW.. THAT SEX OFFENDERS DO TODAY....BACK IN 1959 SOMETHING IS SEAL ABOUT MY FATHER...SO I KNOW WHEN I WAS IN MY 40'S I FIND OUT HE IS GAY....AND WHEN HE DIED....HE TOOK THAT SECERT TO THE GRAVE.....SO MY SISTER...IS SPEAKING THAT THE SPIRITS....WHICH ARE KNOWN TO MAKE HAVIC ON YOUR LIFE..IS TRYING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING LIKE ITS SOMETHING U NEED TO LET GO..OR RELEASE......

I THOUGHT IM DOING THAT...IT WILL BE HARD FOR ME TO FORGIVE MY FATHER....I WAS NOT HIS LITTLE GIRL....I WAS THAT BITCH...HIS FIRST WIFE....SO I GUESS ALL THE DAMAGE THAT GRANDPARENTS DID  CONTROLLED THE FAMILY...I GUESSED TIL THEY LEFT THIS EARTH...WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT NOW....I REMEMBER I WAS CALLING THEM..TO CHANGE MY MIND ABOUT COMING HOME....AND ERNESTO #2 WE GOT ENGAGED....SO MY GRANDFATHER TOOK ME OUT OF THE WILL...I REALLY DIDNT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT...THAT....I TENDED NOT TO LISTEN TO THEM...THAT I WAS LIVING MY LIFE MY WAY...SO....I THINK SOMETHING HAPPEN THE TWO TIMES MY DAUGHTER JASMINE WENT TO GO SEE THEM AT THE AGES OF 3/4....OH I HOPE NOT...CUZ THIS BITCH ...WILL DEGRAVED THAT GRAVE...IF THEY TOUCHED MY DAUGHTER.....I JUST WISHED....I LIVED IN A NORMAL FAMILY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DOES...BACK IN THE DAY IT WAS HUSH HUSH...NOW ...ITS TALKED ABOUT......GOD I HATE MY MOTHER...THE STEP BITCH....AND THE FATHER AND PARENTS OF MY FATHER.....FUCK OFF MAN......ENOUGH FOR NOW....

TO...............

CAROLE ANN COTNER...AND TO THE EVIL WICKED STEP MOTHER..MARY ANN DALLNER