I DONT RECALL......

KNOWING THAT THIS HOLIDAY IS DIFFICULT FOR ME TO GET THRU....CAROLE ANN CHILVERS DALLNER COTNER....EVEN THOU U STILL LEFTED US...BACK IN XMAS EVE OF 69.....AND I WILL BE 54 IN TWO DAYS....AND YOU NEVERED REACHED OUT...AND I HAVE...AND I CANT GET NOTHING OUT OF YOU OF SOME OF THE FACTS...I NEVERED HEARD THAT U LOVE ME...LET ALONE SAY IT TO ME.....WOW...THAT REALLY SUCKS......THANKS FOR BEING A MOM....I WILL BY ALL MEANS GET THRU THIS HOLIDAY....44 YRS IS ENOUGH OF PAIN.....GOD I HATE YOU....AND U MARY DALLNER...EVIL STEP BITCH......YOUR NOT GONE YET....WHATEVER BITCHES.....NICE ROLE MODELS..........................NOT.........................................

i just dont get this.........................

I THOUGHT ...I WAS DOING GOOD...MY FORGIVING MY MOTHER...AND IT IS STILL HAUNTING ME...MORE...LIKE I NEVERED FORGIVE HER.....XMAS IS COMING UP ...AND I HATE THIS HOLIDAY....I PUT MY XMAS FACE ON FOR MY FAMILY...BUT DEEP INSIDE...I HATE IT.....SO IF MY GRANDPARENTS ON MY FATHERS SIDE...PAID FOR MY MOTHER TO LEAVE US BACK IN 1969...WHY IN THE HELL DID COOK COUNTY BACK IN 1969..GIVE CUSTODY TO MY DAD....WHO MIGHT OF BROKEN THE LAW.. THAT SEX OFFENDERS DO TODAY....BACK IN 1959 SOMETHING IS SEAL ABOUT MY FATHER...SO I KNOW WHEN I WAS IN MY 40'S I FIND OUT HE IS GAY....AND WHEN HE DIED....HE TOOK THAT SECERT TO THE GRAVE.....SO MY SISTER...IS SPEAKING THAT THE SPIRITS....WHICH ARE KNOWN TO MAKE HAVIC ON YOUR LIFE..IS TRYING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING LIKE ITS SOMETHING U NEED TO LET GO..OR RELEASE......

I THOUGHT IM DOING THAT...IT WILL BE HARD FOR ME TO FORGIVE MY FATHER....I WAS NOT HIS LITTLE GIRL....I WAS THAT BITCH...HIS FIRST WIFE....SO I GUESS ALL THE DAMAGE THAT GRANDPARENTS DID  CONTROLLED THE FAMILY...I GUESSED TIL THEY LEFT THIS EARTH...WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT NOW....I REMEMBER I WAS CALLING THEM..TO CHANGE MY MIND ABOUT COMING HOME....AND ERNESTO #2 WE GOT ENGAGED....SO MY GRANDFATHER TOOK ME OUT OF THE WILL...I REALLY DIDNT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT...THAT....I TENDED NOT TO LISTEN TO THEM...THAT I WAS LIVING MY LIFE MY WAY...SO....I THINK SOMETHING HAPPEN THE TWO TIMES MY DAUGHTER JASMINE WENT TO GO SEE THEM AT THE AGES OF 3/4....OH I HOPE NOT...CUZ THIS BITCH ...WILL DEGRAVED THAT GRAVE...IF THEY TOUCHED MY DAUGHTER.....I JUST WISHED....I LIVED IN A NORMAL FAMILY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DOES...BACK IN THE DAY IT WAS HUSH HUSH...NOW ...ITS TALKED ABOUT......GOD I HATE MY MOTHER...THE STEP BITCH....AND THE FATHER AND PARENTS OF MY FATHER.....FUCK OFF MAN......ENOUGH FOR NOW....

TO...............

CAROLE ANN COTNER...AND TO THE EVIL WICKED STEP MOTHER..MARY ANN DALLNER

THOUGHTS..............

WHY IS IT...THAT I CANT GET TO THE NEXT POINT OF MY LIFE....THAT I STILL GO THRU MAJOR SHIT WITH FAMILY BULLSHIT...PAST PRESENT...I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE IS RIGHT NOW...NOR WILL I WILL GET TO IT.....THANKS FOR FUCKING MY LIFE UP....

SILENCE IS COMING UP AROUND THE CORNER FOR ME.....CUZ I WILL NOT HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN FROM MY PAST AND OR PRESENT...WHICH IS TROUBLING ME SO BAD NOW...I CANT SEE THAT FAR AHEAD.....I HATE BOTH OF U..CAROLE COTNER..MARY DALLNER...................

WELL............

GEE MOM....YOUR GRANDDAUGHTER HAS FALLEN INTO YOUR FOOTSTEPS.....

REALLY.............

U PUT YOUR MAN FIRST.. AND WALKED AWAY FROM YOUR CHILDREN....WELLLLLLL........

YOUR FIRST HUSBAND MY FATHER WAS A CLOEST GAY MAN.....AND YOUR SECOND HUSBAND...MOLESTED YOUR DAUGHTER(#6) AND KILLED HIS BROTHER..AND DID 25YRS FOR THAT............GEE ARENT WE SPECIAL....

U A DUMB BITCH...............A STUPID BITCH.................YOUR OLDEST DAUGHTER....WOW...THATS ME... I WILL EXPOSED YOU TIL U LEAVE THIS PLACE....

SOMETHING IN COMMON

WELL I SAT AN THOUGHT FOR A MINUTE....MY DAUGHTER AND MY MOTHER....WHO BOTH LIVE IN MISSISSIPPI...BOTH HAVE PUTTIN THERE MAN FIRST...AND WALKED AWAY FROM THERE CHILDREN........................WELL ISNT THAT SPECIAL....MAYBE THEY SHOULD GET TOGETHER AND COMPARE NOTES...

THANKS

FOR ABANDONING ME CAROLE DALLNER COTNER.............CUZ I MANAGED TO ABANDON YOU ALL THIS TIME.............AND HAVE NO REGRETS IN DOING IT........BUT IM REALLY PLEASED THAT YOU HAVE BUT A ASSHOLE MAN FIRST YOUR IN ENTIRE LIFE AND NOT THE DAMN 7 KIDS YOU BORED.........WHAT A MOM....U SUCK BITCH.........