GREAT NEWS....

I GOT TO TALK TO MY MOTHER CAROLE....THIS IS A GOOD THING...I TOLD HER HEY..WISHED HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND TOLD HER I LOVE YOU.....THIS IS HUGE...I FELT 40 RS CAME OFF MY SHOULDERS...THIS IS SMALL STEP...BUT ITS OK...LITTLE STEPS..I SENDED HER A HOMEMADE CARD..PICS AND A BRIEF LETTER....THANKS TO MY BABY SIS..T..E..R FOR THE SPEAKER PHONE..I GOT TO HER MY MOTHER AND MADED HER LAUGH....THIS IS A GOOD THING....

STEP MOTHER AND THE FATHER

STILL NOT FINISHED WITH THESE TWO....STILL HAVE A LOT TO SAY....UGH......ANYWHO....U ANIT WORTH MY TIME JUST YET....WHATEVA....

IM STILL NOT FINISHED....

IM STILL NOT FINISHED....IM GOING TO BLAST THESE TWO MOTHERS AND THAT DRUNK FATHER....IM NOT DONE...IM PISS AS FUCK....EVEN TO I HAVE FORGIVEN THEM..MY MOTHER AND FATHER...BY LETTER AND VERBALLY..TO THEM...IM STILL GOING TO EXPOSE THE DALLNER REIGN BULLSHIT...AS FOR MARY DALLNER...AKA...STUPID STEPMOTHER BITCH...IM COMING TO YOU...BLAST YOUR ASS TO THE MOST..

I WILL NOT LET THESE 3 BITCHES...TAKE MY MIND..THOUGHTS...AND TO GET THRU CERTIAN PAIN IN AREAS...THAT NEEDS TO BE SAID....AS FOR MY BROTHERS AND SISTER...IM EXPOSING TO....I WILL STOP BITCHING WHEN U START OWNING UP TO BEING A ADULT AND WE START ACTING LIKE BRO/SIS..LIKE WE SUPPOSE...WE HAD THE SAME PARENTS...OR DID YOU ALL FORGET...I WONT FORGET..I FORGAVE..BUT WILL NOT FORGET...AND MARY DALLNER U ANIT WORTH FOR FORGIVENESS...EXPLAIN LATER...IM GOING TO BE BLOGGING AGAIN ON ALL MY BLOGS..LISTED HERE ON THE LINKS TO THIS PAGE...

CAROLE, MARY..WILLIAM....

CAROLE....

YOU FUCKING LEFT ME....U ABANDONED ME...HOW COULD U DO THAT...I WAS YOUR FIRST OLDEST..I CANT EVER GET PASS THAT U DID THIS TO ME... I HATE WHAT U MADE ME GO THRU AS AN ADULT AND CARRY THE PAIN ALL THIS TIME...U WERE NOT THERE FOR MY GRADUATION FROM HIGH SCHOOL..U WERE NOT THERE FOR MY FIRST CHILD I HAD...U WERE NOT THERE FOR MY SECOND AND THIRD CHILD...U DID NOT ATTEND MY WEDDING U TOOK THAT ALL WAY FROM ME.. AND I TRY ED TO REACH OUT TO YOU...AT LEAST 5 TIMES THRU THE PHONE..U COULDN'T FACE OR ANSWER ANY OF MY QUESTIONS...

I WILL FORGIVE YOU..I WILL NOT FORGET FOR I AM A BETTER MOTHER IN WAYS ..THAT YOU WERE NOT FOR ME.. I TOOK CARE OF MY CHILDREN AND RESPONSIBILITIES...FROM DAY ONE ON ALL MY THREE CHILDREN YOU DON'T EVEN GET TO SEE YOUR GRANDCHILDREN OR GREAT GRANDCHILDREN.....YOU HAVES MISSED OUT ON LIFE AND MY LIFE...ITS ON YOU...NOT ME..I WILL NOT TAKE THIS PAIN ANY LONGER....I'M 54...TIME TO LET GO....BY THE WAY...FUCK YOU...FUCK OFF...ENOUGH SAID....

MARY....WICKED STEPMOTHER.....

WELL I HATE YOUR FUCKING ASS... U ABUSED ME...MENTALLY...PHYSICALLY..EMOTIONALLY FROM THE AGE OF 10/18 YRS OF MY LIFE....U HAVE EMBARRASSED ME IN WAYS...U PUT YOURSELF FIRST IN THE CHURCH AND MADE US SIT IN THE BACK OF THE CHURCH IN THE LAST PEW...U ANIT FUCKING SPECIAL THANKS TOO U...I HATE CHURCH IN WAYS...THAT I DON'T LIKE THE FACT OF FAKE PEOPLE AND U ARE #1 ON MY LIST...I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU EVER....I WILL ALWAYS WISHED I HIT YOUR ASS LIKED MY SISTERS DID...BUT I LEFT HOME TO GET AWAY FROM ALL THE BS DYSFUNCTIONAL CRAP FROM THE DALLNERS...I'M SO GLAD I DON'T USE THAT NAME IN MY LIFE....I DON'T NEED TO ASSOCIATE MYSELF TO THE DALLNERS. I ONLY GIVE U 0.1 OF FORGIVENESS...THAT'S ALL U GET....I WILL MAKE SURE...WHEN U LEAVE THIS EARTH....I WILL ATTEND IT....ITS A RECKONING..I WILL NOT LET MY PAIN TAKE ME DOWN ANYMORE I'M BETTER AND STRONGER AND A BETTER MOTHER WHEN YOU EVER WAS...YOUR OWN SONS MY BROTHERS..HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU.....U THINK.....

NOTE......!!!!!! I AM WHO I AM....A WOMAN...A MOTHER A GRANDMOTHER A WIFE...AND BEST OF ALL..I'M A BITCH....THAT WILL NOT TAKE BS FROM ANYONE NO MORE...ITS MY LIFE...YOU ALL GOT THAT.....

MY FATHER....I WILL NOT FORGET WHAT U HAVE DONE ....YOUR SECRET LIFE AND U DIDN'T TELL YOUR CHILDREN....I WAS YOUR FIRST OLDEST...AND U TREATED ME AND SAID TO ME..I WAS A BITCH JUST LIFE THE FIRST WIFE...AND I ALWAYS SAID I WAS GLAD I WAS A BITCH I DON'T LIKE BS...U DID NOT PUT ME FIRST....I WAS NOT DADDY'S GIRL...AND U PRECIOUS LESLIE WAS YOUR GIFT..FUCK YOU DAD.... I REALLY DID HATE YOU....U WERE A DRUNK...U CAME TO MY FOOTBALL GAME DRUNK...JR YR IN HS...LIKE I DIDN'T SEE THAT...U ADORED MY FIRST CHILD...YOU WERE NOT THERE FOR MY SECOND AND THIRD CHILD...NOR MY WEDDING... I MOVED TO FL..TO GET AWAY FROM ALL THE DALLNERS...I WAS NOT GOING TO LIVE WITH THE BS....I GIVE U 0.1 OF FORGIVENESS CUZ U LET MY REAL MOTHER GO BY THE WAY OF YOUR PARENTS...U LET THE WICKED STEP MOTHER ABUSED ME...AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT...

I WAS A GOOD MOTHER AND FATHER TO MY KIDS...I DIDN'T KEEP SE CERTS ITS ALL ON YOU ...AND NOT ME...I WILL NOT TAKE THIS PAIN ANY LONGER FROM YOU....YOUR LOST...

MY GAIN WERE MY CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN AND MY HUSBAND....TO BAD SO SAD U DIDNT GET TO BE IN MY LIFE....I TRYED TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE....BE GONE...IM OUT BITCHES...

I DONT RECALL......

KNOWING THAT THIS HOLIDAY IS DIFFICULT FOR ME TO GET THRU....CAROLE ANN CHILVERS DALLNER COTNER....EVEN THOU U STILL LEFTED US...BACK IN XMAS EVE OF 69.....AND I WILL BE 54 IN TWO DAYS....AND YOU NEVERED REACHED OUT...AND I HAVE...AND I CANT GET NOTHING OUT OF YOU OF SOME OF THE FACTS...I NEVERED HEARD THAT U LOVE ME...LET ALONE SAY IT TO ME.....WOW...THAT REALLY SUCKS......THANKS FOR BEING A MOM....I WILL BY ALL MEANS GET THRU THIS HOLIDAY....44 YRS IS ENOUGH OF PAIN.....GOD I HATE YOU....AND U MARY DALLNER...EVIL STEP BITCH......YOUR NOT GONE YET....WHATEVER BITCHES.....NICE ROLE MODELS..........................NOT.........................................

i just dont get this.........................

I THOUGHT ...I WAS DOING GOOD...MY FORGIVING MY MOTHER...AND IT IS STILL HAUNTING ME...MORE...LIKE I NEVERED FORGIVE HER.....XMAS IS COMING UP ...AND I HATE THIS HOLIDAY....I PUT MY XMAS FACE ON FOR MY FAMILY...BUT DEEP INSIDE...I HATE IT.....SO IF MY GRANDPARENTS ON MY FATHERS SIDE...PAID FOR MY MOTHER TO LEAVE US BACK IN 1969...WHY IN THE HELL DID COOK COUNTY BACK IN 1969..GIVE CUSTODY TO MY DAD....WHO MIGHT OF BROKEN THE LAW.. THAT SEX OFFENDERS DO TODAY....BACK IN 1959 SOMETHING IS SEAL ABOUT MY FATHER...SO I KNOW WHEN I WAS IN MY 40'S I FIND OUT HE IS GAY....AND WHEN HE DIED....HE TOOK THAT SECERT TO THE GRAVE.....SO MY SISTER...IS SPEAKING THAT THE SPIRITS....WHICH ARE KNOWN TO MAKE HAVIC ON YOUR LIFE..IS TRYING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING LIKE ITS SOMETHING U NEED TO LET GO..OR RELEASE......

I THOUGHT IM DOING THAT...IT WILL BE HARD FOR ME TO FORGIVE MY FATHER....I WAS NOT HIS LITTLE GIRL....I WAS THAT BITCH...HIS FIRST WIFE....SO I GUESS ALL THE DAMAGE THAT GRANDPARENTS DID  CONTROLLED THE FAMILY...I GUESSED TIL THEY LEFT THIS EARTH...WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT NOW....I REMEMBER I WAS CALLING THEM..TO CHANGE MY MIND ABOUT COMING HOME....AND ERNESTO #2 WE GOT ENGAGED....SO MY GRANDFATHER TOOK ME OUT OF THE WILL...I REALLY DIDNT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT...THAT....I TENDED NOT TO LISTEN TO THEM...THAT I WAS LIVING MY LIFE MY WAY...SO....I THINK SOMETHING HAPPEN THE TWO TIMES MY DAUGHTER JASMINE WENT TO GO SEE THEM AT THE AGES OF 3/4....OH I HOPE NOT...CUZ THIS BITCH ...WILL DEGRAVED THAT GRAVE...IF THEY TOUCHED MY DAUGHTER.....I JUST WISHED....I LIVED IN A NORMAL FAMILY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DOES...BACK IN THE DAY IT WAS HUSH HUSH...NOW ...ITS TALKED ABOUT......GOD I HATE MY MOTHER...THE STEP BITCH....AND THE FATHER AND PARENTS OF MY FATHER.....FUCK OFF MAN......ENOUGH FOR NOW....

TO...............

CAROLE ANN COTNER...AND TO THE EVIL WICKED STEP MOTHER..MARY ANN DALLNER

THOUGHTS..............

WHY IS IT...THAT I CANT GET TO THE NEXT POINT OF MY LIFE....THAT I STILL GO THRU MAJOR SHIT WITH FAMILY BULLSHIT...PAST PRESENT...I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE IS RIGHT NOW...NOR WILL I WILL GET TO IT.....THANKS FOR FUCKING MY LIFE UP....

SILENCE IS COMING UP AROUND THE CORNER FOR ME.....CUZ I WILL NOT HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN FROM MY PAST AND OR PRESENT...WHICH IS TROUBLING ME SO BAD NOW...I CANT SEE THAT FAR AHEAD.....I HATE BOTH OF U..CAROLE COTNER..MARY DALLNER...................

WELL............

GEE MOM....YOUR GRANDDAUGHTER HAS FALLEN INTO YOUR FOOTSTEPS.....

REALLY.............

U PUT YOUR MAN FIRST.. AND WALKED AWAY FROM YOUR CHILDREN....WELLLLLLL........

YOUR FIRST HUSBAND MY FATHER WAS A CLOEST GAY MAN.....AND YOUR SECOND HUSBAND...MOLESTED YOUR DAUGHTER(#6) AND KILLED HIS BROTHER..AND DID 25YRS FOR THAT............GEE ARENT WE SPECIAL....

U A DUMB BITCH...............A STUPID BITCH.................YOUR OLDEST DAUGHTER....WOW...THATS ME... I WILL EXPOSED YOU TIL U LEAVE THIS PLACE....

SOMETHING IN COMMON

WELL I SAT AN THOUGHT FOR A MINUTE....MY DAUGHTER AND MY MOTHER....WHO BOTH LIVE IN MISSISSIPPI...BOTH HAVE PUTTIN THERE MAN FIRST...AND WALKED AWAY FROM THERE CHILDREN........................WELL ISNT THAT SPECIAL....MAYBE THEY SHOULD GET TOGETHER AND COMPARE NOTES...

THANKS

FOR ABANDONING ME CAROLE DALLNER COTNER.............CUZ I MANAGED TO ABANDON YOU ALL THIS TIME.............AND HAVE NO REGRETS IN DOING IT........BUT IM REALLY PLEASED THAT YOU HAVE BUT A ASSHOLE MAN FIRST YOUR IN ENTIRE LIFE AND NOT THE DAMN 7 KIDS YOU BORED.........WHAT A MOM....U SUCK BITCH.........

CONT...

IN A NUTSHELL..................
WE ARE ALL BORN IN THIS DALLNER/CHILVERS FAMILY TO CONTROL..WE ALL HAVE A UNIQUE CONTROL...IF IT ANIT MY GRANDMA ELLURLA...IF IT ANIT CAROLE...BONNIE.. JASMINE...PASSION....WE WERE BORN THIS WAY...AND MAYBE ITS A GIFT OR WHATEVERS ...BUT....I WILL ALSO NOT KEEP FIGHTING OR THE DAUGHTER CONNING ME ANYMORE...NEEDLESS TO SAY...IM DONE WITH BULLSHIT...AND I HAD ENOUGH....SO DEAL WITH IT...IF NOT THATS OK TOO...I WILL KEEP LIVING MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT AND INTEND TOO...THATS WHO I AM.....<>SO BE IT.....IM OUT.....

FROM OFF MY DAUGHTERS BLOG...

the bright light is is blinding....
well i come to the conculison that we need to be apart for life.. i have no more for you....today i had a talk with a good friend and i had a light blub moment.....

i think grandma chilvers i think she was a strong woman and took care of my grandfather.... and her daughter carole my mother was a strong woman bitch type and try to control my father...(probably the fact that he was gay)...and she was done with it...and she left...and me being the oldest of her daughter bonnie(me)....and

MAY ALL OF YOU GO TO HELL

THANKS FOR FUCKING UP MY LIFE...MAY ALL OF U ROT IN HELL FOR WHAT YOU DID....THANKS CARLOE AND WILLIAM FOR FUCKING IN THE BACK SEAT OF A CAR IN THE WINTER MARCH OF 1959...OH AND NINE MONTHS LATER...ME....THANKS TO CAROLE THIS BITCH HAD 5 KIDS WITH WILLIAM WHO IS A FUCKIN CLOSET FUCKIN FAG...GREAT PARENTS...THANKS FOR FUCKIN UP MY LIFE...I HATE YOU CAROLE..I HATE YOU WILLIAM AND I HATE YOU MARY...GO TO HELL....ROT IN HELL...MAKE SURE U TRIP OVER THE HOT RAKING COALS OF FUCK....BURN BITCHES BURN......................

dedicated to carole chilvers dallner cotner...

Mother, You had Me I never had you
I wanted you but you didn't want me
So I got to tell you
Goodbye , Goodbye

john lennon



why u still here bitch...u left me in 69...and its 2011...bitch u needs to be gone...die bitch die....

yo...two mothers...u dont come close....

JAZ….
HERE ARE THE BIRTH CERTIFICATES FOR THE BABIES…AND THERE SOCIAL SECTURITYS CARDS…

NOW…A FEW THINGS I NEED TO SAY FOR THE LAST TIME…THOSE TWO WKS OF CHAOS WAS ENOUGH…I LISTEN… I WAS HAPPY TO HAVE MY GRANDGIRLS AND WAS SO IMPRESS WITH MACKERS… THIS LAST YEAR WHERE I JUST STOPPED COMMUNICATION AND CUT ALL TIES… WAS A GOOD THING…ONE..MS.BEVERELY SUGGESTED THAT…SO I DID…LITERALLY STEPPED DOWN…MY STRESS FACTOR IS GONE…I HAD RESPONSABILTYS TO GUNTHER AND WILLIE…I WASN’T TAKING CARE OF THEM LIKE IT WAS..BEFORE THE GRANDS..I HAVE FOUCS ON GUNNY AND HE HAS SHINED HIS FIRST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL…NO ESE AT THE MOMENT AND THAT IS IMPORTANT RIGHT NOW..HE HAS A DREAM AND I WILL STAND BEHIND HIM TIL HE WALKS ACROSS THAT STAGE…AND I WANT TO SEE THAT…I FELT I DIDN’T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MY SON AND WILL WILL BECAUSE I WAS TENDING TO YOU…MOST OF ALL I SHOULD OF STOPPED TENDING TO YOU WHEN U TURN 18..MAYBE THERE WOULD HAVE BEEN A BETTER OUTLOOK BETWEEN YOU AND ME..
I HAVE BENT OVER BACKWARDS FOR YOU…I WAS THERE FOR YOU..I WAS THERE FOR THE GRANDS FROM DAY ONE…I LET YOU DESTORY MY APARTMENTS I GAVE YOU A CUSHION.. I GAVE U A HOME.. FOR YOU AND THE BABIES…BUT…I LET YOU..YELL AND CUSS ME..I LET YOU DISRESPECT ME AND MY HOME…I MUST BE THE MOST GULLABLE MOTHER OF ALL TIMES…I DIDN’T LET YOU FALL FLAT ON YOUR ASS…I KEPT TAKING U IN…CUZ U KNOW HOW TO MANIULATE ME..I LOVE U MOMMY…AND I FELL FOR IT…SO IF I KICKED YOU OUT I WAS TRYING TO MAKE U FALL…NOT FAIL…BUT FALL…I DON’T OWE YOU ANYTHING..INCLUDING RESPECT…YOU TOOK YOUR LIFE AT 13 AND STARTED RUNNING AND U BEEN RUNNING SINCE…YOU ARE STUCK IN THIS ALL ABOUT ME GENERATION…AND IT ANIT ABOUT YOU…YOU HAVE THREE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN(ITS ALL ABOUT THEM).. AND U HAVENT SHOWED THEM ANY STABLE ENIVORMENT YET…U NEVERED FINISHED SCHOOL…U DON’T HAVE A JOB…YOU DON’T HAVE A HOME FOR THEM..U DON’T HAVE MONEY..YOU DON’T HAVE A CAR…THESE ARE THINGS THAT U NEED TO HAVE…TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR FAMILY…U MADE THAT DESCION WHEN U STARTED RUNNING AT 13..YOU MAY BE BLAMING ME FOR THAT…BUT U CANT…U RAN…I LET GO…I LET YOU COME IN ANT OUT OF MY LIFE…GIVING ME HAVIC….BECUZ I WAS A MOM..I FOLLOW ALONG WITH YOUR BULLSHIT…AND NOW U CANT HANDLE IT..CUZ IVE WALKED AWAY…FOR A WHOLE YEAR(AND U THINK BECUZ THAT HURTS YOU…NO..U HAVE HURTED ME) AND THAT TO ME IS A GOOD THING…I WILL NOT BE SUBJECT TO YOUR BULL SHIT AND HOW U WANT TO RUNS THINGS…YOU ANIT IN CONTROL(YES IM IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE AND WHO IS AROUND ME BUT I THOUGHT I TAUGHT YOU THAT I GUESS U DIDN’T GET THE MEMO)…. YOU ARE FLYING BY THE SEAT OF YOU PANTS WITH LIFE…THAT EVERYONE OWES YOU….

YOU THINK THAT THIS IS THE GETTHO LIFE…KEEP ON..BUT YOUR CHILDREN ARE SUFFERING…THEY ARE NOT IN AN STABLE ENIRVOMENT…THEY BEEN IN FOSTERCARE…AND NOW A SHELTER…YOU BEEN THERE A WHOLE YEAR…AND WHAT I SEE…YOU THE SAME OLE JAZ…YOU HAVENT CHANGED…I WOULD OF DONE ANYTHING TO GET MY KIDS BACK..I WOULD OF TAKING ANYTHING TO TAKE THE PARENTING CLASSES THE ANGER MANAGEMENT CLASSES…FROM DAY ONE WHEN THEY TOOK THE KIDS AND PUT THEM INTO FOSTERCARE…I WOULD OF BITCH SCREAM AND FOUGHT MY WAY TO GET MY KIDS OUT OF THE SYSTEM…THE MOMENT THEY WERE TAKEN…ITS 2011..I WOULD OF DONE ALL THINGS THAT THE COURT ASKED OF ME…AND WOULD OF DONE MORE OF WHAT THEY DIDN’T ASK OF YOU TO DO..TO GET THE KIDS BACK….THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN A STURCTURE PLAN FOR YOU TO DO…A MOM WOULD OF DONE ANYTHING…

I SPENT MONEY FOR A LAWYER THAT DID NOTHING…I WOULD OF FOUGHT SO HARD…AND (YOU) SHOULD OF DEMANDED TO THE COURT AND THE STATE..FOR THEM TO BE WITH ME….YOU WOULD OF DONE ANYTHING FOR YOUR KIDS…BUT YOU LET IT GO…AND U HAD TO FOLLOW THERE RULES…BUT..U LIVE AND LEARN…THAT’S ON U…NOW U ALMOST HAVE THE KIDS…SO THE STATE WILL CLOSE THE CASE EVENTUALLY SO…GET IT DONE…AND GET THEM OUT OF YOUR LIFE(DCF)…YOU OWE THAT TO YOUR CHILDREN…

I DIDN’T HAVE MY CHILDREN TAKEN AWAY…I TOOK AND TAKE CARED OF MY RESPONSABILITYS…AND I DID THAT FOR YOU TIL YOU WERE 29..NOW I WALKED AWAY AFTER TWO WKS…WHAT U CANT HANDLE IT…

NOW…I NEED TO SAY THIS ONE THING….I HAVE COME TO A CONSULION OF THIS…NOW IN MY LIFE…WHERE I CAN HANDLE THIS…WHAT IM ABOUT TO SAY…….
ONE…GET YOUR KIDS BACK…(I STAYED OUT OF THIS FOR A REASON,FOR YOU TO GET THEM BACK)…(PLUS I THINK THAT U WOULD OF FIGURE THIS OUT WHY I STEPPED BACK FOR ALL THIS)...AT ANYTIME…AFTER THEY ARE OFFICALLY BACK WITH YOU 100%....

I CAN UNDERSTAND AND CAN ACCEPT THAT IF U CANT HANDLE BEING A MOM FOR ANY REASON…ITS OK…ITS OK FOR YOU TO DO WHAT U WANT TO DO..LIVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT TO…I WILL NOT JUDGE YOU.. I CAN LET IT GO….BUT IF YOU NEED ME TO TAKE CARE OF THE KIDS I WILL DO THAT…GIVE THEM A LIFE THAT IS STABLED…GIVE THEM A CHANCE TO ERASE WHAT AS BEEN DONE…AND GET THEM THRU THIS WITH CARING AND UNDERSTANDING SO THEY CAN BE SOMEBODY SOME DAY…ITS OK…FOR MY MOTHER TO LEAVE ME…OR A SISTER WHO LET ONE OF HERE KIDS GO..FOR ANOTHER SISTER TO WALK AWAY HER KIDS…ITS OK…I UNDERSTAND WHY MY SISTERS DID THAT.. BUT AS FOR MY OWN.. I DON’T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MY MOTHER WHY SHE WALKED AWAY FROM ME…I OVERCAME AND WENT BEYOND MY LIFE TO GET WHERE I AM TODAY…I HAVE FOUGHT FOR THIS LIFE…TO BE WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM…A STRONG OVER POWERING CONTROLLED MOTHER AND OR WOMAN…BE CUZ I DO AND GET WHAT I WANT…BY GOING AFTER IT…YOU ARE A STRONG WOMAN…MORE STRONGER THAN ME..WHEN IT COMES TO MAKING YOUR OWN RULES AND LIVING THEM..YOU DON’T GIVE A FUCK…I DON’T GIVE A FUCK..BUT I TEND TO HAVE THAT STUPID ASS RESOPNABILITY FACTOR IN MY ASS AT 200% MEANING I DO WHATS RIGHT I GUESS AS I LIVE LIFE…I MAY BITCH AND MOAN ..YOU KNOW I WILL TAKE CARE OF THE BABIES…YOU ARE THERE MOTHER…BUT U CAN LIVE YOUR LIFE ON YOUR TERMS…JUST LET ME TAKE CARE OF THEM..AND U DO YOUR THING…ITS OK JAZ…I UNDERSTAND…I GIVIN YOU AN OUTLET TO DO WHAT YOU WANT…BUT…I HOPE YOU CAN OVERCOME ALL THIS…AND PROVE ME WRONG…ANY THIS DOESN’T WILL TAKE CARE OF THE BABIES…ITS FUNNY THERE ARE DIFFERENT RULES WHEN YOU BECOME A GRANDPARENT…I THINK YOU MATURE ENOUGH AND GET A SECOND CHANCE TO RAISE KIDS DIFFERENT..BUT WITH ALL THE THINGS I HAVE SEEN OR BEEN DONE TO…I HOPE I DID OVERCOME MY UPBRINGING BETTER THAN IT WAS DONE UPON ME.. I KNOW I DID A BETTER JOB…I ALSO DID THE BEST I DID WITH MY KIDS…THERE MIGHT HAVE BEEN SOME ISSUES…BUT YOU LIVE AND LEARN.. AND I KNOW I DID THAT…I HAVE CHANGE WITH THE TIMES…AND STILL LEARNING AS I GO…YOU CAN DO THAT TO…

RIGHT NOW IM SETTING MY BOUNDRIES WITH YOU…I WILLING TO SIT BACK…I HOPE I CAN SEE THE GRANDS…BUT ON YOUR TERMS…BE ADULT ABOUT IT…I CAN SEE THEM ONCE A MONTH FOR A VISIT OR TALKING ON THE PHONE IS OK..BE WOMAN ABOUT IT AND TELL YOUR KIDS ITS OK…WHY U AND I DON’T SEE THE SAME PAGE…WE HAVE DIFFERENCES AND OUTLOOKS…AND ITS OK….

I LOVE U…AND IM HAPPY THAT THEY ARE BACK WITH YOU…DO WHATEVER IT TAKES…AND BE STRONG…I HOPE YOU DON’T THINK THAT I SAID WHAT I SAID IN THIS LETTER…BUT..I WANTED YOU TO KNOW ..WHAT IM FEELING…LOVE U JAZ..ALWALYS..MOMS….


thank god..i became a better mother..than you two bitches... i dont give a fuck if i dizts my mamas...they abused me...beyond and i came out a better person...i may have problems with one daugther...but i will not be subject to her bullshit...becuz kids these days..(my daughter)is in that me generation crap...and when i was a kid...we got back hand..but...i come from an era..not to disrespect my elders...and my kid...use that (and kids today)against there parents..so...comment..i can take it...but...i lived it...have you.......

IDGAF................

DEDICATED TO YOU CAROLE ANN DALLNER COTNER...AND YOU MARY DEDE DALLNER....WHAT EVEA BITCHES..................

when reading my blogs..........

dont get me wrong when im saying things about my parents....i choose to tell my story....of the bs i went thru as a child....and to honor my parents...what for.....they F me up...........i wish i had parents that care..and took care of us..and loved us...so if im lettin out all the hidden secrets of the dallner family so be it.............i went thru hell and back...and left home at 19.... becuz of the dysfucntional hell we went thru....how can a mother leave 5 kids...let a man molded her....have 2 more kids and screw them up............great....honor my parents....hell no....the parents that i honor and let them mold me was jeff and margarita....whom i will do anything thing for in this life....which i have done started....i owe them....of who i am today...

good ole dad

well in 1976 he hit some kid and smashed a bike on larchwood...apparently sue remembers this kid hit her in the head with a can...and thats why my dad hit the kid...i found out who it was and someone on fb send my message to this kid...dont know why im saying sorry for what my dad did... but the biggest thing he did....was public indecency at maple grove forest preseve...he got busted right there...it was a cop he.....OMG lets just say he could be call sexual predator....now in life...this hapen in 1990 so that wasnt in the norm just yet...as we all know today...so the father is gay...i may have to look it cook,kane and lake countys....without naming names...he asked a friend of ours for sex in the 70's.....wow.....YUK>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>does anyone remember when someone spray painted our house with the word homo on it.........

some intresting things i got .............

in the mail the other day about my fathers past criminal history...and lets just say he did it today he would be in prison....i share in a minute.....i want to say it right..........